Me.... Doing what I do best

Life pretty much exploded in my face. Like TNT, wrapped in c4, tied to a water balloon full of nitroglycerin. What do I do when life explodes? I hide. I shut everyone out. I just disappear. It's so stupid. Some people actually care about me, and I just shut the door on them.
So now I'm hiding, bawling my eyes out, clutching a can of mandarin oranges, and writing pathetic poetry.

bye.

Random thoughts from a fried brain.

It is really interesting the people that pull for you. People I've known for years couldn't really care what I've got going on right now. Random human a state away; she totally is there, helping me get through it. Shout out to my doppelganger!

ugh.

Real profound right? Yeah. Not doing so hot right now. Really bad day yesterday. My mind is starting to do this whole unraveling type thing. All these thoughts are just sitting there....rotting. I can't keep anything real coherent in my mind right now. I had my life ripped out from under me yesterday. There's nothing I can really do. Just sit here and watch the lies that have been molded around me, drift away.  It's amazing what goes through your head when your world crumbles. "Did I leave my light on in my room?", "Did I bring the milk in from the outside fridge?", "When did that hole get in my shoe?", and "My mug is empty. When did I finish my tea?".

Blurry Eyed.

Good morning.

At least I think it is. I'm still drinking breakfast. Yum, freezer-burned blueberries.

Sorry I haven't posted much (does anyone even read this?). I've been trying to get Sleepless Creations off the ground. Click here to see how awesometastic I am.

So yeah, that has been taking up quite a bit of time. I really want to save up some money so I can go to Portland in July. Going to a fabric store for my 21st! Yeeeeyeah! That's just how amazing I am.

Yay!

Quick post, a friend helped me make head bands that don't suck so bad.

Hey, there's a cat behind me!

2013

I'm sure there are a ton of "new year" posts today.

I am going to be terribly cliché and do the same.

2012..... eh. Not sure what to say there. I was very reclusive. Changed my career goals 20 or 30 times. Finally, I figured out it's my life, I shall do what I want. Sorry world, but I no longer care what you want. I know some people out there mean well. Others don't. 'Tis life.

I FREAKING LOVE WRITING! I really do. Living through my characters. Doing things I could never do. Very exciting.

New Year's resolution: Finish at least one book, and start the process to get it published.

Tada! There it is, folks.

Have a fantastic day!

Wow.

Been a really long time since I have been on here. Really don't care about clowning anymore. Love writing. Writing is good. I love to write. Really. That's good, because I am on a team that is starting a magazine. I am so blessed and honored to be a part of this. I love it. The thrill of getting my columns ready. EEeeeek.

So yeah. I am so confused about things. Like this guy. I have liked him for so long. But he is so amazing and I can't talk to him. I just stand there and say all this stupid stuff. I saw him at a party last night. He said "hi" and I melted. I still don't know if I said "hi" back. He is really sweet, and deals with my lack of social skills.

I want to believe he is the ONE, but I don't know. I have to trust God. My track record with men just yeah. Not good. So I'm going to let God handle this one.

I don't even know why I'm writing all this.

My fingers just will not stop.

Working on one of my books right now. It's about an assassin. Trying to get into the mind of an assassin is not easy.

It's like 45 degrees in my room.

I crocheted a head band today. It looks really bad. See.

 

So I think that's it for right now.

 

Wow. Why did I say all that? Oy.